I have a lot that I want to say, but I dont know how to put it all into words. As some of you know things are working out between me and a certain guy. It is awesome. He challanges me soo much and is an awesome man of God. He is also has growing wisdom. We are doing a long distance relationship. Both of us are really busy that sometimes it is hard to be able to talk online to each other. But we work it out.

But something we have been talking about lately deals with love. We talk about how love does not happen over night meaning it is not instantly. Instead it grows over time. Love is also blind overlooking certain habits and the past. Sometime the past haunts us and we just need to take care of our past before moving forward in life and in relationships.

God has been good to me lately. I have been able to find a job and find someone special that is just what I need. He and I have talked about can God be mean to us. Does He gives us something to good to be true and then totally takes it away from us? I dont think God is like that. It sounds almost like He would be teasing us. From all my knowledge God is not like that. Sometimes He will give us feelings, emotions, needs, and wants. These will become predominant. God will give us the desires of our heart. I think if God places a desire in our hearts then he will see to it that fulfilled. Sometimes we just have to ask and He is waiting freely to give us those desires. However, sometime He does not because He knows what is best for us and that we should have it later and not now. Just have to be patient with God. Everything happens in His time. I remember a song that we used to sing, "In His Time, He makes all things beautiful, In his time..." I know there is more but that is all I remember. Everything will work together for the good of those who love God. We need to keep God the center of our relationship. We both desire to have God a part. We talk constantly about what we are being taught and learning and being reminded of things. In one of dr. ken's emails, he said that we all are buildings in progress. At first, I didnt understand it. But I did. God is building us each and every day into the person we are to be. We are never a complete building. Because a new floor is being added or a room is being decorated or a part is going through flames to be rebuilt. I need to give up my life to God and allow him to build me to be the person I am supposed to be doing the career he has planed for me. It is hard for me. But I have been leaving a lot up to Him and learning to trust Him in that he will take care of me in my worst hours and days. He will reward you. He has definately rewarded me in who i have as my certain someone. I know I dont deserve him, but God thinks I do. I am not going to fight God. It is a losing battle and there is no point to fighting God because He will win no matter what. I have grown wiser lately thanks to a certain someone.

That is some of what is on my mind. Will probably right more in the morning before work. Have a good one everyone.